"Can you think of a single degradation that has not happened to you?"
Winston had stopped weeping, though the tears were still oozing out of his eyes. He looked up at O'Brien.
"I have not betrayed Julia," he said […].
He had not stopped loving her; his feeling toward her had remained the same. (3.3.77-81, O’Brien to Winston)
Suddenly he started up with a shock of horror. The sweat broke out on his backbone. He had heard himself cry aloud:
"Julia ! Julia! Julia, my love! Julia!" (3.4.20-21)
"Do it to Julia! Do it to Julia! Not me! Julia! I don't care what you do to her. Tear her face off, strip her to the bones. Not me! Julia! Not me!" (3.5.24)