The Joy Luck Club
How we cite our quotes:
Yes, it is true I was a wild girl, but I was innocent. I did not know what an evil thing he did when he cut open that watermelon. I did not understand until six months later when I was married to this man and he hissed drunkenly to me that he was ready to kai gwa [open the watermelon]. (IV.2.23)
First of all, that sounds like a terrible wedding night. Second of all, her husband is obviously really crude. Sex here isn’t some pleasant and emotional experience, it’s about this drunken guy lusting over a young, pretty woman.
I had a swimming feeling in my heart like a creature thrashing to get out and wanting to stay in at the same time. That is how much I came to love this man. This is how it is when a person joins your body and there is a part of your mind that swims to join that person against your will. (IV.2.40)
This is also called: having sex with someone and then developing feelings for them, against your will.