Tender is the Night Book Two, Chapter Eighteen Summary
Dick is in Austria, and he’s thinking of Nicole’s love. But he knows he’s "lost himself" though he can’t say precisely when, and that he’s away to try to find himself again.
He remembers how happy and whole he felt when he married Nicole, but now he feels like he’s just been used by the Warren family.
He thinks it should have come to an end long ago, and loves all the girls he sees before him.
He thinks of maybe having a short affair with the woman who is flirting with him, but he thinks that to do so would make less serious the real love he had for Nicole.
In his room, he finally opens the telegram Nicole has forwarded, and learns that his father has died. The man was about 75, and had died alone. Dick’s mother had passed on before, and Dick’s two sisters had died before he was born.
Dick remembers his father, and then makes plans to go to the U.S. for the funeral. Then he gives Nicole a call, lamenting that he isn’t the kind of person he’d hoped to be.