War and Peace Volume 3, Part 1, Chapter 17 Summary
Natasha is more animated, but she’s still pretty shell-shocked by what happened. She has a hard time enjoying anything or feeling pleasure, so she just avoids everything.
Mostly she tries not to be a burden to her family.
She also hangs out with Pierre, who is super nice to her. He never talks about his feelings for her, and she just assumes all that stuff about proposing was a way to make her feel better and doesn’t really mean anything. (Yeah, we all frequently ask people to marry us just to make them feel better.)
Anyway, later in the summer Natasha gets really into church and starts preparing for communion the old-fashioned way – mass three times a day for a week.
Her mom thinks this is a good sign.
Listening to the service, Natasha doesn’t understand everything that is being said. (Russian Orthodox services are conducted in Church Slavonic, a language that is related to, but not the same as, Russian.) Still, it makes her happy to feel like God is guiding her.