I am fourteen and my skin has betrayed me the boy I cannot live without still sucks his thumb in secret how come my knees are always so ashy what if I die before morning and momma's in the bedroom with the door closed. (1-11)
In this first stanza, the speaker expresses all kinds of fears. She's worried about dry knees and pimply skin, but she's also worried about death. (Uh-oh: what does a 14-year-old have to worry about death for?) The stanza ends with two lines that may give us a clue: her "momma's in the bedroom / with the door closed." Our speaker is isolated from her mom. No good can come of this.
I have to learn how to dance in time for the next party my room is too small for me suppose I die before graduation they will sing sad melodies but finally tell the truth about me There is nothing I want to do and too much that has to be done and momma's in the bedroom with the door closed. (12-23)
The second stanza is similar to the first; the speaker complains a bit about typical teenager stuff, but then continues to express anxiety about death. And she repeats those worrisome final lines from the first stanza. Her mom's still in the bedroom with the door closed. The isolation that the speaker feels is starting to feel like it's permanent.
Nobody even stops to think about my side of it I should have been on Math Team my marks were better than his why do I have to be the one wearing braces I have nothing to wear tomorrow will I live long enough to grow up and momma's in the bedroom with the door closed. (24-35)
The last stanza is similar to the other two: once again, our speaker expresses adolescent fears along with morbid fears about death. By the time those last two lines repeat for the final time, we are super-concerned for our speaker. This teenager needs her momma, and stat. But it looks like her momma's not opening that door anytime soon. In "Hanging Fire," family is just another source of anxiety, not a source of comfort.