Endgame Perseverance Quotes

How we cite our quotes: Citations follow this format: (Act.Line). Every time a character talks counts as one line, even if what they say turns into a long monologue.

Quote #10

HAMM
Perhaps I could throw myself on the floor.
(He pushes himself painfully off his seat, falls back again.)
Dig my nails into the cracks and drag myself forward with my fingers.
(Pause.)
It will be the end and there I'll be, wondering what can have brought it on and wondering what can have…
(he hesitates)
…why it was so long coming. (1.687)

Why would the end arrive more suddenly if Hamm were to throw himself on the floor? Why does he imagine digging his nails into the cracks and not just lying there? Why does the end have to come with effort? Why is it something to be achieved?