How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #1
It was becoming clear, though, that my self-imposed isolation during the summer had been more effective than I'd realized. Right after everything happened, I'd cut myself off entirely, figuring this was safer than risking people judging me. (2.5)
The rape was terrible and traumatic, but it doesn't just end there for Annabel. She also has to deal with the fallout in her social life; she basically has no friends to lean on after it happens. How lonesome.
Quote #2
The worst part was that I had things I wanted to tell my mother, too many to count, but none of them would go down so easy. She'd been through too much, between my sisters—I could not add to the weight. So instead, I did my best to balance it out, bit by bit, word by word, story by story, even if none of them were true. (4.106)
Even at home Annabel feels alone. Her family members all have their own problems, so she doesn't feel like she can add to their burdens—but by hiding her secrets, she's only separating herself from them more.
Quote #3
I tried to picture myself retracing my steps, moving back to take my place on the couch, but I just couldn't. So I left him there alone to watch history repeat, the same events retold again and again, on his own. (6.119)
Ever since Annabel was assaulted she's been unable to fully connect with her family members. Even sitting on the couch and spending some time with her dad seems like it'd be too much.
Quote #4
I looked down at my steering wheel, picking at the edge. "I don't know," I said. "In my experience, when people I'm close with have gotten upset with me, that's it. It is forever." (8.62)
Pretty much every time Annabel's gotten into a big conflict with a friend, that friend has disappeared. Maybe that's why she keeps expecting it to happen with Owen when he's willing to sit around and patiently hear her out.
Quote #5
"The thing about Whitney," I said, "is that she was always really private. So you never really knew if anything was wrong with her." (10.210)
Whitney exists in her own little world with her eating disorder, and she doesn't want to let anyone else in. This makes it hard for her to get better though, especially when she's unwilling to accept help.
Quote #6
Looking up at him, I realized that this, too, was part of my real back-to-school days: Along with Sophie and Will and everything horrible, there was Owen, reaching out a hand to me. (11.119)
Annabel isn't so alone after all. Things may have soured with Sophie and all her other friends at school, but at least she's gotten this opportunity to know Owen. And he's been a more solid friend than Sophie ever was.
Quote #7
When they called us out of the dressing room, she didn't walk out with the rest of us. Instead, she showed up after we were all in our places to take her spot second in line, three people ahead of me. (12.150)
After what happens to Emily, she's set apart just like Annabel was. But she doesn't hide away like Annabel did—she holds her head up high and walks down that runway, unashamed about what happened to her.
Quote #8
Instead, I walked out of the room and everyone watched me. I could feel their eyes as I stepped around Sophie, then pushed out into the hallway and started for the stairs. (13.157)
Directly after being raped, Annabel doesn't reach out to anyone, and no one reaches back to her. Instead she has to extract herself from the situation and drive herself home, knowing that everything will be different from here on out.
Quote #9
I'd been so alone and scared and yes, angry, and somehow Owen had seen it, even when everyone else had chosen to look away and act like it wasn't happening. Just like I'd done, and was doing, to Emily tonight. (14.212)
There's something very lonely about hiding a horrible secret, and Annabel recognizes that loneliness in Emily when she sees her at the fashion show. Instead of reaching out to her and forming a little support group of two though, Annabel decides to go with her current M.O.—stay away from everyone.
Quote #10
It was like the time I'd spent with Owen hadn't happened at all. Yet again, I was alone at school, modeling even though I didn't want to, and somehow completely unable to do anything about either. (15.3)
If Annabel was lonely before, things are way worse when Owen stops speaking to her. Even with things going well at home, Annabel feels completely adrift in the world. She's back in her little sad boat for one.