Study Guide

A Million Little Pieces Part 4, Chapter 4

By James Frey

Part 4, Chapter 4

James wakes up at 3:47, and he's scared of everything. "Scaredscared scared" (4.4.12). Leaving. Lilly. Love. Living. Dying. (Clowns. The number thirteen. Gwyneth Paltrow.) Etc.
Miles exchanges information with James (it's a one-sided exchange since James doesn't have an address or phone number yet), and James goes to find Lilly.
James and Lilly manage to get a moment together to tell each other "I love you."
James says he's going to jail, but he promises he'll come find Lilly afterward.
James says goodbye to Lilly, then to Joanne and to Hank. Hank makes him promise to come back as a visitor, not a patient.
James's brother picks him up. Their friend Kevin is also there to get him.
James Frey, you just got out of rehab. Now what you going to do? He's going to Disn…
"I'm going to a Bar" (4.4.200).
Of course, James's bro thinks this is a bad idea, but since James is the most stubborn man on the planet, bro takes him anyway.
James orders a glass filled to the brim with Kentucky bourbon.
Then James stares that glass down, as though it's his toilet or that otter he looked at in the woods that one time, and he doesn't drink it.
James tells his brother he "won't ever do it again" (4.4.264).