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Hard Love Chapter 15

By Ellen Wittlinger

Chapter 15

  • They all head out to a bar named Butterfields and meet up with some of the other people at the zine conference: Sarah, B.J., June, and a few others.
  • Marisol seems particularly interested in June; they start talking about writing and before long they're flirting and dancing together.
  • John's a little upset. He wishes he didn't have to see Marisol interested in someone else.
  • He starts talking to Diana. She knows Marisol is gay, but she also thought something was going on between the two of them. Nope, they're just friends.
  • He decides he's going to call it a night, so he goes over to tell Marisol. In reality, he just wants to pull her away from dancing with June, but he doesn't admit that.
  • Marisol doesn't care much if he leaves, and she even says she's going to bunk with June tonight. Message received.
  • John leaves and Diana goes with him. They talk about their lives as they stroll along together.
  • She tells him about her musician dad trying to make it before her mom died. By this point, Diana's picked up on the fact that he wants to be more than just friends with Marisol, so she tells him about a gay guy she was friends with.
  • They got really close and she started to like him, but he was into guys. She would get upset when he would flirt with another guy in front of her, because she'd wonder if he could ever feel that way about her. Eventually, they stopped hanging out.
  • John knows Diana is just trying to help, but he's getting sick of people telling him he can't feel what he already does for Marisol. He wishes everyone would just butt out.
  • He tells Diana he just wants to go to bed, and after she leaves, he writes a poem.
  • The next morning, he wakes up to find Bill in the kitchen making breakfast. After they wake everyone up, they all talk about their writing and how to make zines on the computer. Then they each go around sharing something they've written.
  • Marisol reads her "Escape" piece because June wants her to. Then John reads the poem he read last night, entitled "I'm Not Lying."
  • It's about Marisol letting him in, and him learning to trust her. He wasn't lying about who he was with her, and he never wants to.
  • After everyone's done reading, Bill yells out to Marisol that she has a phone call.
  • John gets up to see if she's okay, but a guy stops him. She's part of the lesbian contingent, so she probably doesn't want to talk to you.