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If I Stay Chapter 9: 5:40 P.M.

By Gayle Forman

Chapter 9: 5:40 P.M.

  • Ghost-Mia eavesdrops on Gran and Gramps.
  • Gramps wonders if Mia will want to die to be with her parents.
  • But Ghost-Mia hasn't seen her parents. She is all alone in this weird space between life and death.
  • Mia realizes that she could choose to die, though. "If I stay. If I live. It's up to me" (9.13). Hey, title shout-out.
  • Before she makes any decision, Mia wants to see Adam.
  • Halloween flashback.
  • Adam dresses up as Mozart, and Mia decides to dress up as a rock chick.
  • Mia's mom, a former rock chick, takes Mia thrift-store shopping for the perfect costume.
  • Mia feels fierce and sexy, totally unlike her normal self.
  • Mia even goes to a concert with Adam after taking her brother trick-or-treating.
  • And Halloween-costume-Mia gets into the mosh pit, something introvert-Mia never does.
  • After the concert, Mia asks Adam is he likes her more as a rock chick.
  • "This is the you I like," Adam says. "You're one of the punkest girls I know, no matter who you listen to or what you wear" (9.93). Aww. Even if she listens to Nickelback?