The Girl on the Train Chapter 19

Rachel

• Rachel, who can't let anything go, phones Scott and asks if he knows Anna.
• Scott invites Rachel to come by that afternoon, so she does.
• He tells her that Megan did some babysitting for Tom and Anna, but they didn't ever seem to get along.
• When Scott asks Rachel why she's asking about Anna, Rachel says she thought she saw Anna the night Megan went missing.
• Scott gets angry—he doesn't understand how Rachel could have seen Anna but not Megan.
• He throws a chair. He's also mad because he's a suspect now that Kamal has been released.
• Apparently Kamal told the police that Scott was an "emotional abuser" (19.40).
• Maybe he was—he tells Rachel the last thing he ever said to Megan was, "Go to hell you lying b****" (19.44). Via text message. Charming.
• Scott calms down and tells Rachel to let him know if she remembers anything.
• This prompts Rachel to want to unlock her memories even more, and she considers seeing a therapist, "someone like Kamal Abdic" (19.62).
• So she makes an appointment to see the good doctor.
• At her appointment, she tells him a lot of truth about herself and the dissolution of her relationship.
• She hopes that when she reveals that Tom had an affair, Kamal might look guilty somehow. But he doesn't.
• So Rachel hasn't miraculously exposed the man as a murderer, but on the upside, the therapy actually seems to be helping.
• She makes an appointment to go back, even though she thinks he has a creepy smile and that she can "see the killer in him when he shows his teeth" (19.106). Are they filed to sharp points or something?
• That night, Rachel has a dream that she did something wrong but she doesn't know what.
• The dream leads her to thinking about how she and Tom tried to have a baby via in-vitro fertilization—it didn't work, and Rachel was devastated.
• They didn't have enough money to try again, but Tom took what money they did have and went to Vegas for four days.
• Rachel screamed at Tom, called him selfish, and broke their wedding photo.
• Rachel puts an end to the pity party and heads outside.
• Uh-oh… She sees a tabloid newspaper and buys it because of the headline: "WAS MEGAN A CHILD KILLER?" (19.117). Whelp, looks like the dead baby is out of the bag.