Lucy: A Novel Dissatisfaction Quotes

How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)

Quote #10

I was alone in the world. It was not a small accomplishment. I thought I would die doing it. I was not happy, but that seemed too much to ask for (5.35).

Why does Lucy say that being alone in the world isn't a small accomplishment? And why on earth would she conclude that happiness is too much to ask for?