- Deborah rides a bus two hours each way between the hospital and a tutorial school where she takes classes to prepare for the GED.
- Deborah takes pride in the effort it's taking her to get that certificate, because it will mean more choices for her in the world.
- Deborah notices how the attendants at the hospital treat her with more kindness and respect now. They see her early in the morning with her books getting ready to go out to her classes, and they greet her. She feels less judged now that she's a student.
- Deborah moves back into Mrs. King's rooming house and goes to the hospital just for dinner and therapy sessions with Dr. Fried.
- One day, after therapy, Deborah notices a fight between a group of attendants and Miss Coral. Deborah says hello to Miss Coral, and it snaps Miss Coral out of the fighting. Miss Coral even asks Deborah about Carla.
- When Deborah realizes her bus will be leaving, she says goodbye to Miss Coral, who then resumes the fighting with the attendants.
- On the bus, Deborah thinks about the D ward women and wonders how many of them will end up succeeding outside the hospital.
- Deborah spent three years in the hospital, and she realizes that three-quarters of the people who left were sent to other hospitals. She wonders again how many will achieve what she's trying to achieve.
- The real moments of doubt about whether she will ever fit in overwhelm Deborah on the bus rides home in the afternoon.
- There are lots of high school and college girls on the bus. Deborah watches these girls and feels the insecurities of adolescence. She knows that their insular cliques look better than they actually are, but she still finds herself feeling like a jealous outcast.
- In these moments of weakness, Idat, a goddess from Yr, appears to Deborah. But also in Yr are new images of the teachers who are preparing her for the GED. These teachers tell Deborah that they are not with the Collect. They defend Deborah's work ethic and intellect to Idat.
- The Collect appear and tell Deborah they're going to dance. The teachers remind Deborah that whether she's sick or well she is part of the dance, part of the world.
- The teachers and the Collect write these old Yri words on a piece of paper: "You are not of them." Then they tear up the paper, and the pieces scatter in the wind.
- At choir practice, Deborah asks the girl who stands next to her if she wants to go out for a soda, and the girl acts nervous and turns pale in the face. This hurts Deborah's feelings, but she tries to soldier on.
- Deborah talks about the incident with Dr. Fried, who questions whether Deborah's attitude is preventing her from making friendships in the world outside the hospital.
- Deborah insists that people who aren't sick like her can't truly see her, but then she does say that there have been moments where they have trusted her and shown signs of friendship. Mrs. King trusted Deborah to babysit her two-month-old granddaughter for an hour and a half.
- Dr. Fried asks Deborah if she loves her parents. Deborah says she does, and then she lists others she loves, including Dr. Fried.
- Deborah then asks if she has to get rid of all of Yr.
- Dr. Fried suggests that Deborah keep Yr in a way for now by sharing it through her art. Deborah agrees.
- Deborah takes the GED and waits for the results. She passes with a score high enough to be considered for entrance into college if she wants.
- Esther is overjoyed with the news when Deborah calls her to tell her.
- Deborah celebrates her scores by walking around the high school grounds in town. She watches the healthy kids running around the school and thinks about how hard she had to work for something that must have come so much more easily to most of them.
- Deborah sees a high school couple holding hands and nuzzling, and she gets jealous. She worries that she'll never have that with anyone. The gods of Yr tell her the same thing, and then they start to laugh at her.
- Deborah starts walking back to town.
- As Anterrabae flies past Deborah with his characteristic flames about him, Deborah sees another figure right next to him that she recognizes: it's an image of Satan that she remembers from an illustrated edition of Paradise Lost her grandfather had.
- Deborah then realizes that Anterrabae was modeled on this figure. She realizes that even Yr was borrowed.
- Even as Deborah has this realization, the Collect roars at her and screams that all of her work was for nothing. She has a GED, but she'll be alone and unloved forever.
- Deborah has ventured all the way to the hospital now, and she feels the Pit waiting for her.
- When Deborah rises from the Pit, she's in restraints, with Quentin checking in on her. He lets her know that Mrs. King brought Deborah some books and her clothes, and Deborah tells him Mrs. King is a good person.
- Back in the ward, Mary throws a tray at Deborah's head.
- Deborah realizes she is making the others struggle with "Maybe"—the hope of their own recovery, and the threat of difficult relapses.
- Deborah realizes she is at a crossroads. This epic meltdown over realizing Yr was made up of only her imagination and borrowed images? It's about Deborah finally pledging allegiance to the world. Having the meltdown and getting herself to the hospital was her way of doing this hard last process in a safe place.
- Deborah looks through her schoolbooks while Anterrabae tries one last time to convince her she is not of Earth. He reminds her of her hard childhood, and of Hitler, and of the lawlessness of the world.
- Deborah tells Anterrabae calmly that she is of Earth, and that she is going to side with Earth with her "full weight."
- Deborah says goodbye to Anterrabae and Yr.