How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #1
"I was caught up in my mother's freedom, her delight in her freedom, her dream of transformation." (1.7)
Jack's trying to change into his mother and her habit of periodically pulling up stakes and changing everything about their lives. When you move every six months, it gets easy to tell stories about who and what you are.
Quote #2
"I didn't come to Utah to be the same boy I'd been before. I had my own dreams of transformation…" (2.1)
And just so we're clear, Jack wants us to know that he's interested in changing himself; it's not just Mom pushing her agenda on him.
Quote #3
"She feared we would spend our time with friends from the public schools we attended and possibly end up as Mormons" (2.7)
Grown-ups in the book are definitely interested in transforming Jack. Dwight wants him to be a "man," Mom wants him to be a good boy, Sister James wants him to be a good Catholic (or at least a non-Mormon), etc. It could be that Jack's need to transform is a necessary way of determining who he is by himself, rather than letting others transform him.
Quote #4
"All the images of myself as I wished to be were images of myself armed." (3.12)
Key point here: Jack ties his transformation into gunplay. Carrying a gun, to be specific. It's probably part of his need for control over his life—a gun makes you feel in control, even if you aren't—but it plays a big role in his development. And he does ultimately join the army, after all.
Quote #5
"It was the kind of room that B-movie detectives wake up in, bound and gagged after they've been slipped a Mickey." (5.2)
Here's where storytelling and imagination enter into Jack's journey. He's living in a cheap little boardinghouse room, but he thinks of it as something cool and romantic: something out of a detective story. Sounds a lot better than "a crappy attic in a boardinghouse," doesn't it?
Quote #6
"I could introduce myself as a scholar-athlete… and without any reason to doubt me, people would believe I was that boy, and thus allow me to be that boy." (10.11)
This is one of Jack's big misunderstandings about life. Call it 'Fake It Til You Make It Syndrome': all he has to do is pretend hard enough and he'll change. Sadly, it just ain't that easy.
Quote #7
"The mold had no features, of course, but it somehow suggested the shape of the beaver it had consumed." (17.37)
Here's a symbol of transformation that might possibly match what Jack's going through. It looks like a beaver, it's shaped like a beaver, but it's actually just a pile of stinky creepy mold. Could it mark the difference between real change and just the pretend change that Jack keeps trying?
Quote #8
"The effect on them would have been careless, just one of style, and I took note of it." (22.72)
Even late in the game, Jack's still trying to transform just by imitating someone else. It makes him aware of the desire to transform, but is he aware of the way he's really transforming?
Quote #9
"The words came as easily as if someone were breathing them into my ear." (22.76)
It's very brief, but Jack may have found his real tool of transformation here: writing, which is what he's so good at and which he's discovering here for the first time. (He went on to write a bestseller, after all, so we'll take it as a given.)
Quote #10
"We live on the innocent and monstrous assurance that we alone, of all people, have a special arrangement whereby we will be allowed to stay green forever." (31.13)
This is a very odd statement in a book that's about trying to change. Not only does Jack want to change, but he's going to change whether he wants to or not. And yet here, he says that all of us think we're going to stay the same. Hmmmm.