How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Stanza)
Quote #1
By the summer I turned nine Daddy had / given up about having a boy. / He tried making me do. / I look just like him, / I can handle myself most everywhere he puts me, / even on the tractor, / though I don't like that much. (1.4)
There's no denying the fact that Billie Jo's a girl, but Daddy does the best he can to make his daughter as close to the son he never had as possible. He teaches her to do farm work with him and tries to focus on the fact that she has his genes regardless of her gender. He seems to hope this will transform his feelings toward her and make him as happy with a daughter as he would have been with a son.
Quote #2
In the parlor, Ma is something different. / She isn't much to look at, so long and skinny, / her teeth poor, / her dark hair always needing a wash, but / from the time I was four, / I remember being dazzled by her / whenever she played the piano. (13.1)
Ma might seem like an ordinary housewife, but for Billie Jo, music transforms her into something "dazzling" and is what makes her unique and beautiful to her.
Quote #3
I can't look at her. / I can't recognize her. / She smells like scorched meat. / Her body groaning there, / it looks nothing like my ma. / It doesn't even have a face. (35.1)
The way the fire destroys Ma's dazzling appearance mirrors the transformation of the family's life in general. What was once simple but beautiful, now is unrecognizable and horrifying.
Quote #4
I don't know my father anymore. / He sits across from me, / he looks like my father, / he chews his food like my father, / he brushes his dusty hair back / like my father, / but he is a stranger.
[…] We are both changing, / we are shifting to fill the empty spaces left by Ma. (41.1, 3)
Like Ma's frightening appearance after the accident, her death also transforms Daddy into something unrecognizable to Billie Jo. They don't talk easily, which isn't saying much since they had trouble communicating even before the accident. In her absence, they both struggle to change and adjust to life together.
Quote #5
Mrs. Brown said, / "The blossom opened at midnight, / big as a dinner plate. / It only took moments to unfold." / How can such a flower / find a way to bloom in this drought, / in this wind. (45.2-3)
You know times are hard when a crowd gathers around a neighbor's front porch to watch a flower bloom because it's become such a rare thing. The blooming of the cereus plant is a small but important moment in the story, as it foreshadows Billie Jo's own transformation from a withered shell into someone with a love of life, even in the middle of darkness and sadness.
Quote #6
And later, / when the clouds lift, / the farmers, surveying their fields, / nod their heads as / the frail stalks revive, / everyone, everything, grateful for this moment, / free of the / weight of dust. (57.7)
Just like the characters, the land also goes through transformations as the dust storms come and go. Rain in particular is a game changer for every living thing in the Panhandle—the heaviness of hardship lifts from tired shoulders just as the wheat regains life.
Quote #7
I don't think she was ever / really meant for farm life, / I think once she had bigger dreams, / but she made herself over / to fit my father. (60.7)
Long before the action of this book began, Ma made a decision to transform herself in order to fit a relationship. This explains why she's so reluctant to let Billie Jo perform in public on the piano—it's a painful reminder of what she gave up.
Quote #8
I thought maybe if my father ever went to Doc Rice / to do something about the spots on his skin, / Doc could check my hands too, / tell me what to do about them. / But my father isn't going to Doc Rice, / and now / I think we're both turning to dust. (89.4)
Here's a thought. Going to the doctor to get fixed up is such a simple thing—even for problems as serious as burned hands and skin cancer. Is it possible that both Daddy and Billie Jo go through a period of their grief where they don't want to be fixed? This is another one of those ambiguous things that comes from reading someone's diary, but that both of them don't act for a while indicates that they could be nursing their pain rather than taking steps to transform it.
Quote #9
She has a way of making my father do things. / When Louise came to dinner, / Daddy got up and cleaned the kitchen when we were / done eating. / He tied an apron around his middle / and he looked silly as a cow / stuck in a hole, / but Louise ignored that, / and I took a lesson from her.
As much as life changed for the worst after Ma died, Daddy's relationship with Louise transforms his life into something good again. The image of Daddy wearing an apron and cleaning the kitchen is very telling—there's no way the embittered, brooding man from several chapters ago would have done this. Billie Jo is learning from Louise too, seeing her quiet, kind way with people and wanting to adopt it.
Quote #10
The fact is, / what I am, / I am because of the dust. / And what I am is good enough. / Even for me. (109.2)
In spite of everything she's been through, the dust of her life has an unexpected, transformative effect on Billie Jo: she gains self-confidence. She begins playing piano again, allows herself to love Louise and renew a connection with her father, and realizes that her home has helped build her up in the long run, not tear her down.